2016

I'm coming up on a new year and you guessed it - I'm as poorer and fatter than I've even been.  All of my attempts to improve including a boot camp and Dave Ramsey course have failed.  So now - I don't give a Fuck.  And I'm going to read the following book.  I'm tired of trying to please others ALL THE FUCKING TIME.  It's impossible and I'm done with it.  It is the whole reason that I am where I am.  I spend way too much money on the way I look etc to impress others.  I spend way too much money on things to impress others.  I spend way too much time worrying about what others think.  I will never be thin and attractive.  I will never be organized. I will never be wealthy.  And I don't fucking care anymore.  In fact, I honestly don't care if I die.  I've wasted my life.  I can't even get approved to become a teacher and that's the only goal I have left.  My kids do not need me and my husband is fucking miserable.  I can't make life any better no matter how fucking hard I try.  so screw it.  

The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F*ck: How to Stop Spending Time You Don't Have with People You Don't Like Doing Things You Don't Want to Do